Tuesday, March 31, 2009

This is the sort of thing...






...we have to put up with.

It’s not easy. Having said that it’s easier for me then it is for the boys. I can at least just walk, I don’t have an imperative compulsion to wee on something every few yards. It amazes me that they aren’t completely dehydrated by the end of the day, I imagine walking into a pub dragging two hairy husks behind me.

I imagine a lot of things. That’s the beauty (and the curse) of having oodles of time and space and no one with whom to share it (spoil it), one’s mind wanders and you’re allowed the room to indulge yourself fully in your own brand of jibberwaffle.

I’m stuck somewhere in my noggin with a half formed thought that the river is somehow allegorical, that I’ve passed my wicket gate and am on my own ‘straight and narrow’. It does appear to cut across (my) life, and if you’ve walked far enough, the where you’ve been, are, and where you’re going become blurred – blurred sufficiently for landmarks like bridges to become significant.

There are times when I feel I want to catalogue, to commit to memory, to burn sharp pictures of the abrupt end of woodland and the step forward into dappled sunshine, the gaping, forbidding mouths of dark pitch, echo less tunnels or even the sheet of sleety rain seen approaching across the wind.

But there’s no allegory here, for surely any simile should serve a purpose? I might so purposelessly compare Charlie’s bladder habits with April showers as the river with the habitual drawer of my life.
Eventually we’ll come to the sea, that’s all I know – at least I think I know that. Follow a river and you’ll reach the sea?

And now I need the sea. I’m full to overflowing with leaf littered pathways beside glittering moribund water. Sick of foppish beauty. I long for the brutality of open water on spring tides driven into rock and stone by bitter winds.

Do you ever dream of hiding tight behind the log, by the fire lit, in a whistling westerly shrieking it’s curse to the plume and spume of dying waves?

Life’s taken a turn for the gentle, and I don’t like it.

9 comments:

Miladysa said...

Well you are all looking well despite/because of the gentle life :D

Variety is the spice of life so they say.

Keep smiling Fish.

Jessica said...

Your writing, Colin, makes me hold my breath - and that's a good thing.

xoxoxo

Monogram Queen said...

You are looking very well (as are the boys).
Well press on faster toward that roaring tumultuous sea. No sense in dawdling by complacency if that is not what you want!
So good to get a post from you. I love your writing, too. Very much!

Al said...

Good to hear crackle and spit of your words. Are we really ever in charge of the journey? I think I just drift along in my little boat, carried by whatever current takes me. I don't think I want to be in charge, just aware.

Daisy said...

You're looking very well indeed as are the boys.

Tammi said...

Great pix---I thought I'd been here before,but I guess not.
Wow! I wish I were in London.
Your accents drive us Texans nuts!!
Looooove it!

irishmerlina said...

You're looking well... good to see. Hope all good. Will always care.

irishmerlina said...

Juliet, by the way

Monogram Queen said...

Okay if you do start blogging again send me your link as i'm about to "clean house" LOL