Monday, January 08, 2007

paint your pallet blue and grey

It’s been a while.

I’d hoped it might feel like a comfortable shoe that one could slip back into, but it feels rather more like an stiff old shirt, ill fitting and a little too tight around the collar.

So here’s to a happy, healthy new year to everyone before I forget, and a brief review of the events of the last few months by way of explanation and apology to friends I’m doing a bloody good job of not deserving.

Essentially I have been gone because at the end of last year I disappeared, figuratively, into a revolving door of travel and corporate entertainment, living out of suitcase, drunkenly, always packing, laundry, sleeping fitfully 'in transit' or dropping my poor boys of at the kennels, to the point where I…how can I describe, “lost balance” I think, forgot what was (is) important, even necessary, and then the wheels simply fell off. Just for a short while but terrifying nevertheless. I know Clotho by name, I held hands with Lachesis for a short while and turned away just in time to hide from Atropos, but I'm sure I smelt her breath and it was sweet and I was sorely tempted.

Just an incident. A lesson I suppose I couldn’t have missed.

So mostly since then I have been trying to immerse myself in what is self evidently important, friendship and the health necessary to enjoy them.

I had a great New Year in Minneapolis, I have to tell you that Sandra is amazing, the hostess with the mostest, kind and great fun (Laddie really is that beautiful and noble in person). Jenn is wonderful, truly upbeat, and with her friend Shelley the four of us just had one of the happiest, funniest, joyous nights I’ve had in an age. And I was honoured to meet the diminutive 4th of those blythe spirits and fell head over heals for a tiny, beautiful, shy girl with a spectacular grin that lit up the room when she deigned to eventually grace us with it.

And now it’s back to work, for a while at least, back into the revolving door but with a full battery and a better perspective.

Spare a thought for Toffee, he’s been in agony with his knee this past six weeks and he’s finally going to go for surgery on his cruciate ligament tomorrow…it’s by far the most important thing going on around here at the moment.

He's lying with his head on my lap as I write and I just want to tell him it's okay, you'll run again.


Wendy said...

I've missed your posts Colin. I'm glad you're back - though I admit, I don't know Clotho or Lachesis or even Atropos ... guess I'm far from 'worldly'. Nonetheless, glad you're back.

And - I'm sending positive, warming, healing thoughts for Toffee. I sucks to know your friend is in such pain. I hope the surgery is smooth and the recovery quick. Keep me posted please.

Wendy said...

"IT" sucks -- I meant to write.

Jenn said...

Atropos cannot have you yet.

The feelings are mutual...the diminuative blythe spirit has painted you a's on its way. I hope you like glitter.


patti_cake said...

I've missed your posts too but I figured that you were busy traveling. I'm so jealous that you got to spend New Years w/ Sandra, Jenn & the diminutive one :) Glad it was a happy, joyous experience.
P.S. Get well wishes to dear Toffee

Stacy The Peanut Queen said...

Ahhh, THERE you are! Welcome were missed muchly! :)

Sounds like you had a marvelous time with the gang...glad to hear it. :)

I'm sending healing thoughts Toffees way...:)

Sandra said...

I'm very concerned about Toffee now :(

It was so nice to have you here, wish I'd had a bit more time to just hang out but it was truly a treat, and I'm glad it even snowed a little for you!

Gerbera Daisy said...

SSSOOOOO glad to have you back to blogland!!! Sending warm fuzzy get well thoughts for Toffee. Hope he is up and about pain free soon.

Aims said...

YAY YOU'RE BACK!!!!!! good to have you back mate! Glad you enjoyed time with your friends. Poor Toffee, he'll be fine I'm sure xx

Al said...

Nothing makes you feel more poweless than a sick pet or a sick child. They just don't understand, and you are helpless to explain.

Best wishes fot Toffee.

Jessica said...

Glad you are back...missed you much.

Seven said...

I want to meet Jenn....really!!

Melissa said...

Duke says "sniff, sniff, woof". I don't know what that means, but I know it's meant as a comfort to Toffee.

Finn said...

You're not dead; this pleases me. Atropos is a bit put off, but she'll recover. It's not as if you can escape her forever. Or can you?


greeny said...

What a lovely surprise to find new posts on your blog! I'm so glad you are back. Here's to a quick recovery for Toffee.